I spent last week in a massive funk. I didn't want to get out of bed and dreaded being at home although, that is all I had to do. If you have ever dealt with depression you know what I mean. I have struggled with it for most of my life and have used different methods to deal with it some not to good for myself. I have started to heal and these visits from my demons are less frequent now but they do still come.

What is different now is finding a way to release myself from them in a healthy way. I have found tools and support to help me deal with them. I am creating rituals that I look forward to everyday. I am going to start working with a naturopathic doctor to get my health in order and with an exercise regiment that I really do enjoy doing.

I must say though, the biggest thing right now is remembering gratitude. When everything is dark and I feel as if I cannot pull myself up I remember what I am grateful for in my life and things seem a bit brighter. I am going to try really really hard to get on this space most days and declare to the world what I am grateful for.

Today my Gratia is for the love I feel everyday! 

For my husband who is there and knows when to just listen and hold me and wait for the the sadness to pass. 

For my kids who bring me breakfast in bed when mommy isn't feeling so well. 

For friends who, may not even realize it, are picking me up when am down when I think no one cares.

Especially For myself and the love and confidence inside me that I just need to remember are there.